There was a person that I used to be. That person was a cheater, liar, mean and hateful, spiteful and vengeful, and all kinds of other things. I was not a good anything. I was going through life selfishly worrying about what I needed.
Enter Christ, stage left.
I came to Christ at a very low point in my life. And since getting a new start by becoming a Christian and putting all my faith into Jesus, I have been able to walk a new path.
Yet, some still doubt my change. They believe that who I am is still who I was. I was made new in Christ. I am not that girl who hurt people. I am not that girl who intentionally is bad. I still make mistakes. I still trip up and falter on the path I’m on. I’m human. I’m allowed to. By God’s good grace and mercy I am able to repent and truly try to walk faithfully again.
There are times when the devil will approach me in human form, trying to bring my past back up. Trying to say, God remembers all your mistakes, all your dirt, and all you’ve ever done.
Devil, you may try to use people to remind me of who I was, but God will let them see who I am now. The devil is a liar and will try to confuse your thoughts to make you think you’re not worthy. He will use people to make you think that the dark spots in your life are there permanently, or hidden underneath a certain false facade. But you better know, like I know, we are made clean in the blood of Christ. He didn’t die for us that we may be depressed about our circumstances. We are not to dwell on who we were. Sure, we don’t forget where we came from, but rejoice in the new person you are in Christ.
When the world wants to remind you of a past that isn’t perfect, remember this:
God made you perfect. Perfect for your purpose. He is still molding you. He is the potter. You are the clay. Remember that you don’t live for the world. You live for God. You don’t live for the people who want to trip you up on what you once were. Be reminded and comforted that the Lord has cast your sins as far from the east is from the west. Your sins are forgotten and you are forgiven by God. People may not forgive you, but are they the ones who are blessing you abundantly? Are they pouring out blessings from the Windows of heaven for all you do for God’s kingdom? No, right?
So pick your head up, child. You are loved by an awesome, merciful God. He’s the one you need to please. You can talk to people about how you’ve changed but nothing speaks louder than actions. Don’t waste your breath trying to convince unbelievers of who you are in Christ. Just live right, live for God and glorify Him in all you do.
I’m glad you knew the person I was back then and all that I was. You can and will see the difference in who I am now. And even if you don’t, I know who I am in Christ who strengthens me, and I don’t need your approval. I am a kings daughter. His approval is all I need ever again… the rest will follow accordingly.
So if you think it hurts to tell me who I was, well, it just reminds how far I’ve come in my walk… and I laugh and smile because I’m truly filled with joy.
Don’t let anyone steal your joy. You are blessed and fearfully and wonderfully made by God. That’s enough to know that the opinion of men is the least of your worries.
God bless you all, and be encouraged that God is amazing and can do great things with even the least of us.